简直就是找碴的

please read from the post below for continuity. for some reason i cannot write in the previous one so i will simply start a new one~ ok.

cant remember what i was wrting about. oh ya the chinese words. is basically what the conflict theory is about la. then there is another more...harmonious way of looking at things. so if i were to give a poor a name in this system, they will simply be 'a random guy on the street just like any random guy'.

yea, i will get back to that poiint later if i remmeber.

ok so i think that they are invisible because i do not know of anyone around my circle of friends, classmates who are born in a poverty cycle and unable to get out. but maybe that is because i am in my own circle myself.

and i am reminded of something an annoying classmate said lat year she said that:

(my name), (she likes to say my name first whenever she wants to say something bratty, i know her kuan very well one)

ok so:

(my name), do you think that the inequality here is so bad that the people around us are increasingly coming from wealthy families as we further our studies. in school i hardly know anyone who stays in a hdb and i wonder what that speaks about this system

ya she said something like that but because she is an annoying person i usually just listen to it from one ear and out it goes from another ear. ok not really, it did leave quite a thought at the back of my skull because i do think about it whenever i am free... like now...

ok so as what i have learnt in JXXXXXE, in the society, J, everyone seems to be a middle class because everyone has the same pursuits, the same things they want, they wear the same clothes, they have the same opportunities and i think with these same all, we feel no different from the guy next to us on the mrt train with a abercrombie shirt and a herschel bag even though we are wearing a humble shirt from cotton and bag from like a goodie bag (those kind of tote bag used to hold brochures and a bottle of NEWater) . because the difference between the herchel guy and tote bag guy is prolly difference in taste.

in JXXXE, we learnt that there has always been an economic division no matter how 'middle class' the society may seem. in 2000 when i was three, we stayed at a humble hdb in a humble area and everything was quite humble la i dont remember any extravagent lifestlye like even up till 2007 when i was 10, my schoolbag was a birthday gift from ntuc. and i used it for two years. (suddenly feel like crying because i really quite like the kukumalu bag) and like 10 years later, it may seem that the bags i am using are more branded because they are no longer bought from ntuc or bata or china... (i also had a funny china bag) i have cath kidston (three actually) i have kanken i have this i have that. so when i compare with my kukumalu bag from 10years ago, it seems that 'wow our lives have improved so much!" we dont live at district 19 (as what i always thought SK is) we now live nearer to the mrt which is also another sign of an improvment in life.

but

once again

殊不知

the person who had an SPI bag when i used a kukumalu now has a marc jacobs/fendi monster backpack so the 'value' of my kanken as compared to the marc jacobs/fendi monster still remains the same as the SPI and the kukumalu.

ok this is just a minor point for my point about GINI. i am really trying to reiterate what i have learnt from JXXXXE that for societies/economies like ours, we have an escalator kind of system where everyone progresses at the same time so the gap between the kukumalu and the SPI is still the same even though kukumalu now has cath kidston and kanken.

but then, going back to GINI, what can I the cath kidston do for the other kukumalus who may have to use a kukumalu bag forever??

and what are the fendi monsters doing????

is education really the only way out???!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!??!

in JXXXE, this father from a reading told his son

i am glad that you cant go to university, now you can help out in the farms and we can stay happily ever after.

at the point of writing, i still do not have full understanding of these words and the implications. maybe in the future when i am smarter, i will write about it.


ok next, next is about

• Influenza

this one i did write abit on another platform called medium, i am on a lot of platforms now becausedifferent platforms have different needs but it is still written by the same old me whether it be dorothy dora or (my name).

but this whole influencer shit ass thing going on on social media is pissing the fibrous shit out of my large intestines. 

like what wise old W said "wah this is very NM (a mod)"

ok so my point is basically that these influencers (rolls eyes) are surreptitiously posting their photos (usually photos because people look at pictures more these days as compared to words (captions)) on their pages and pretending that it is just a day in the life of but they really are puppets of advertisers and i think thatit is really unfair to gullible consumers like myself because we all think that 'wow! mary lim uses this lipstick" "wow jane lim wears dresses from this blogshop" "wow peter chan has this watch!" so because, linking back to the previous GINI point, owning the product these influencers own seem to make our status more comparable to them . but really just think again la

£consumewisely (my hashtag sign doesnt work for god knows what reason)

i still have more to say but i have more important things to add below. 

• Density

this i also posted on another platform but to put it here for a more complete analysis. recently (actly ystd) i went to this place and met this dense person so dense i swear. SO DENSE I ALMOST HAD TO KNOCK SOME DENSITY OUT OF THAT WOODBLOCK DISGUSIED AS A BRAIn (sorry)

but this woodblock said a lot of insensitive things and me being a more inferior junior/female/freshman/noobie, all i could do was to shake my head quietly at a corner. perhaps i should have been braver and chide the woodblock but that is not in my nature la. i am a filthy keyboard warrior. do yall think keyboard warriors should be embraced or not? i personally hate them but am very guilty of being one because i am not brave enough (too cowardly) to stand up for what i think is right. or i do not judge that it is so serious that i have to voice out la.

• Week 11

entering the 11th week which is just 3 weeks before FINALS! all the best to myself lor. 

• Moving forward

i will quit the current thing i am in because of the people, the timing and my laziness. i will prolly join the 'cip club' equivalent as my extremely sheltered and if she wasnt my friend, self centred friend happily said she will join ok if she reads my blog one day, i dont hate you har!! being self centred is not a bad thing because one should always understand the self first before understanding the world beyond the self so we should always have the self centred mentality where we put ourselves in the middle of our world and see everything from our perspective. what fits? what doesnt? what should change and how to change? to understand this first one should be self centred lor. ok ya so cip club. because i found out that the school is one of the two institutions in our city state that offers help to children from j-l-n-k-u-k-o-h so perhaps i will join them after i tie up the loose strings at the current place haha

ok. wew, it has been a ong post and i may be falling sick again.

till then, mom and Y.